Grieving a Love That Still Breathes

Grieving someone you love so deeply while they’re still alive is one of the hardest things a person can go through. You question yourself and the decisions you made. Then, in the middle of all that pain, you learn to give yourself grace.

You knew the signs. You saw the signs. Everything was right there in front of you, but you ignored them because, in your heart of hearts, you wanted to love him through anything.

Grieving someone who is still alive is an emotional roller coaster. There are lows where you think about them, miss them, and even yearn for them. But deep down, you know you can’t go back, no matter how much you may want to, because it could destroy you. Putting your feelings aside, carrying constant stress, and making yourself sick just to hold on to someone who doesn’t truly want to be with you is not love—it’s self-abandonment.

I can’t wait until I reach the other side of no longer grieving him. Until then, I’m going to give myself grace, take it one day at a time, and choose myself, even on the hard days.